Forgetfulness - a gift of God bestowed upon debtors in compensation for their destitution of conscience. -Ambrose Bierce


Haha. I'm like sitting in the library no
with Shuana, mass blogging!
Actually it's just the two of us...so yea.

Anws..
I'm like super stressed this week.


Shauna or nay other classmates
in that matter, can testify.
I'm like a time-bomb.
And i go crazy all the time
forgetting to bring stuff.

Today i forgot to bring
Mivio her black ballet flats
that she needs for Founder's day dance.
I'm so sorry.
Apparently, 3 other girls also didn't bring
so we're all fighting for the one in the black studio.
Bleh.

I totally like neeeedddd sleeeeppp
that or a boyfriend.
Something or someone who can cheer me up
no matter when and where.
It seems to be getting harder these days.
Not even food can cheer me up.
i don't even feel like eating.

We're gonna have cross-country today and
SOMEONE decided that it was ok NOT
to COME to SCHOOL.
yarr...right!
So now, me and Shauna will be going to dinner
WITHOUT HER

though i don't think she's bothered
cos she'll be hanging out with her boyfriend.
Leaving us two single-ladies
to fend for ourselves
*sad face*

My prayer for today
is to be so not insane
and to be the girl
that everyone can love
once again.

haha. i'm totally like spamming posts here!!!

I kinda quarreled with my good friend
and although we've made up
I feel that everything is sooo fake
And i just
Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

So i was thinking that
we've become a love-hate relationship
and maybe breaking up a while could be better
Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
But i just can't let go you know.
it really really hurts.

You always say how i'm being insensitive
and that I'm the one in wrong.
but doesn't it take two hands to clap?
Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
I really doubt it every time you say
We're best friends!
Do you really know what that really means?

sometimes i feel that i'm the only one in pain
and you really think that all is fine.
Are we really nothing?
I may be nice but i get jealous too.
Add how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
I know its selfish but i just cannot
I know true love doesn't do that
but i can't. i'm dying
can't you see.

so many things have been happening this month
i feel like crying and laughing at the same time.
At my stupidity and idiocy.
how could have believed anything i don't now.
how can anything go in my brain at all.
i feel so shitty.

Sorry for rambling. Just needed to siao a while.
Anyways...
I'm thinking of doing a Vlog (video blog)
but i need a video cam to do that
and i just don't have the money or time to buy one
so i'm still thinking. hmm..

I think it'll be like super interesting
cos my life is full of crazy and hilarious stuff
that i just wanna share with my friends
but you know, sometimes you can't say it
as well as do it. so...yups

i've been saying lots of Bleh.
nowadays don't know why. hmm...

Ya soo...if anyone is interested in buyiing me
a video cam i will be very very very eternally
GRATEFULLLLLL....
hontoni arigato!
But i doubt anyone would unless
he has too much money
or desperately wants to marry me
which probably will never happen.

haha. Love the new show
Down with love (taiwan drama)
it's not a chinese version of the english movie
Different okay...
super nice. It's like weird but cute pairing. haha.
I love. (^.^)"

so anyway just wanna say that
i do love my life and i'm crazy.
ok STOP now.
Rachel Stop. S-T-O-Pppppp
NOWwwww....ok stop.

i'm mad.

好像很久很久都没有用到话语了
所以今天就用一下吧。
最近一直在想一些朋友之间的问题
老实说，我承认我不是一个完美的朋友
我有很多很多的缺点。
可是我超讨厌和朋友吵架
这是令我十分伤心极痛苦的事。

我想说我会学的，学会做一个好朋友。

我会有耐心，体谅你，不吹你
我会体贴你，尽量保护你
我会在你身边，用心听你诉苦
我答应不乱发脾气，不生气。

我会为你着想，不会逼你做不喜欢的事情
我会乖乖听你，不怀疑你
我会试着了解你，不介意你龟毛
我答应很爱恨爱你，每人能代替。