[Wow.
It seems as if time can fly.
My AUNT is so nice.
she knew that i liked the song
side of me by corrine may
and she decided to lent me the CD.
so sweet of her. ]


Let me tell you miracles happen.
all you have to do is believe.
God knows all and all you have to do
is trust Him as a child would.
The love he has for you never ends.
Just like how you should love others.


Love.
It's something so contemporary.
so abstract. so full of obstacle.
Really, if there was no God,
i wouldn't have believe that there is love.
The only love is probably
parent and child.


all around me relationships are failing.
And we all fall down.
Divorces are all over the palce.
It so sad. so sad. It's a sadsad situation.

Still, i chose to believe that
there is love somewhere, out there.
It's just that my eyes are closed to it.
That must be it.
I am still asleep in the world of
relationships.

Time and time again.
Each time i see love fail.
I'll offer it up in prayer
and pray.
pray that one day i'll see the truth.
i mean that is what happen
in those romance books right.

since i write those kind of stories.
i should believe.
when you believe.
it will come true.
i think... ...

Prayer of today:

Dear lord,
i pray that one day i might see
love all around me.
let your love flow through the people
for me to be able to feel it,
strong and true.
Let your love flow in me
that i may love those who
don't love me.
That all those whose hearts are broken
be able to see that God is the one and only.
that all relationships need God to be.
I pray that one day,
i might find my one and only
L-O-V-E.

p.s sorry to all those who are not christian or anti- christian.

on the side of me- Corrine may

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me

sigh...
seems like everyone's moving.
moving to where?
i really can't tell.
i love people who don't love me.
(except my family duh)

I can't understand myself anymore...
it's like i'm lost in the world...
a tornado of lies, a facade,
a mirage of dreams.
who can i love who will love me back
as hard.

hard.
hard as a rock, hard as a diamond.
no i'm not trying to get married.
i just think that sometimes...
even the closest people lie to you.
right in your face.
you feel like you're being taken advantage of.

they seem to live and forget.
leave you abandoned, forsaken.
hanging on to but a breath of air.
you try, but it's all so sad.
so tiring, so suffocating.
taken for granted.
like i'll always be here for YOU!

i will.
i really will.
but who will be here for me.
they bully me cos i won't retaliate.
and you know what,
they know it.
they know that i won't say anything.

they know that i won't cry,
won't get angry,
won't glare or scold or go COLD WAR!
so they do it again and again.
even thou i can say multiple times.
I DON"T LIKE IT!

they give that whatever.
how can you don't like it.
stare.
they don't seem to get it
thru their thick skulls
that i mean what i say.
and when i keep silent they go.
why so emo.

apologize.
i think. trying to psych it into their brains
but to no avail.
i don't think it would even matter
if i would to shout it out.
they would go what?
come on let's go eat!
ha. ha.

like i said.
who's gonna be there when i die
the stars in the sky will cry... ...

oh ya
happy 43 birthday S'pore