I can't stand it ant longer!
What rubbish.
I helped my grandmother make some
Pineapple tarts for CNY.
and LOVE them so i saved myself
a tin.

Then my brother complained that i was selfish
becoz he finished his tin
and one extra one.
while my tin has half left.
So my dad said that i should share.
I said that he finished his already

but my dad said i should either finish it
or let my bro eat cos it's temptation.
What! Rubbish!
If you give three people $100 each.
Just cos someone wants to save it doesn't mean
that he should let the others spend right?!

I'm so irritated that my dad actually thinks this way.
This is soooo NOT! the first time.
He says that he didin't say that i'm in any wrong.
But he doesn't get it that the msg he gives
is that its fine to eat whats not yours
because the other person didin't eat it anyway.

Is that the way?!
Then he scolds me for thinking i'm perfect.
I don't think i'm perfect.
I just think that one should at least be told that
if you finish your stuff, that's it.
If you want somemore,
go buy,
or make what you had last longer.

Is it my fault i eat lesser?
What a big fat lie!!!
I crying super hard now.
for what i don't know.
I hate it so much.
But i can't stop.

God.
Help me and teach me.
God .
Hold me and help me.
God.
I need someone to tell me its ok.
That life doesn't always suck this way.
(pardon the lang.)
That is my prayer for today.

It's raining so hard in my heart.
It overflows into my eyes.

Oh ya. Happy Valentines.

Yay!!!
we're going swimming tommorrow!!!
blub. blub. blub.

Super duper happy in ACJC!
I feel a song comin on.

I love you palas
deep down in my heart
I love you palas
deep down in my heart

deep deep down down
deep down in my heart.
deep deep down down
deep down in my heart.

YAY!

Played water games today!
That was fun.
But the starch games was like
haha. ewww...
we played this game where we
had to put a strip of plastic bag into
our shorts (tail-like)
The plastic bag was dipped in
smelly sticky starch!

Then your opponents
would have to pull that tail.
I got mine pulled off by a guy!
I know it's an open society but eww.
And I wasn't even in the boundary.
S***T

So our team lost and the forfeit was
to let our hair be covered in starch.
The other team had like more guys
so mine was done by a guy.
Because he was super rough.
Like washing my hair with starch.
which is impossible.

It gets stuck.
Then after, he started flicking starch at my face.
What the!
It's not that i'm a sore loser.
But really,
guys should learn how to treat girls with care.

I don't mind you putting starch in my hair
but no need to mess it up yea?
even if you had to,
no need to use so much force.
It hurt you know?
Like he was pulling my hair out.
Bleh!

and don't flick stuff at people's face.
That is so rude.
I didn't even resisted.
No need to do starch washing ok...
even if my hair is short
doesn;t mean that i'm boyish lor...
sigh.

Totally boys school only behavior.
Nope sorry. I know people from
boys schools who are gentlemanly too.
Totally ungentlemanly behavior.
HMPH!

We went on our OG outing today!!!
we went BOWLING!
I seriously can't bowl for shit.
I will never never join bowling.
I got like 44.
What kind of nice number is that.
haha.
Oh well.

Tomorrow is mass dance!
Totally looking forward to going crazy!
even if me and my partner are kinda LACK...
hah.
Campfire night tmr!!!
Yipee! Yipee! Woo!

Today was like super crazy.
we played like a few mud games.
Got sooo dirty that when I went home
to bathe, The soapwater was totally
BROWN.

haha.
I wonder how someone(usually seniors)
pick people to be leaders or in-charge.
Is it looks?
Like if someone looks more responsible.
Or like if they like this person better.

My friend said that after i cut my hair
I look younger and less responsible.
i dunno...Cos i'm not that kind to chat
with seniors. I only say stuff that is needed
to be said.
I can't do the Seniors=Friends thing.
Sooo...I guess i'm like at the disadvantage.

It kinda takes a bit of time.
That doesn't mean i'm not outgoing.
I just...well, need to get used to it.
Sigh....That is so politics.
But I guess I have to learn.

My mom says its being CHARISMATIC.
But thats kinda natural isn't it.
I'm kinda more innocent.
So I don't play politics.
Just Pray. I guess.

ACJC is fun!

First Day Of School.
It was quite fun.
Truthfully, I didn't think that
there'll be as many girls from my school.
At first shock cos I have this phobia
of St. Nicks girls.

But with God's blessings,
I have made quite a few friends.
Super funny.
I saw a church friend
a tuition friend
a primary school friend
a friend's ex
and a cousin.

haha. New school also have quite a few
FRIENDS!!!
That is the root of all things.
That is the basic need of all people.
yup yup.
Other than that I made new friends too.
To be exact, 5 other than my OG lar.
hehs.

Rachel jia you!
Gambate!
Ajar...hwighting!