i'm sorry
i really am
it's so ironic that i was just laughing with you
just barely 2hours ago
I sincerely apologise,
I don't know how many ways
i can say this again and again
before you get pissed and say
forget it or whatever

I know that it's mean of me
to play mind games with you
and from what i've read
guys don't like girls who do
and even though now you say it's ok
i can still feel your disgust and are apalled.

I'm just so scared at times
and I don't want to appear to be too needy
because you said that we're going too fast
i know you said that you didn't mean it
but it has to have certain truth for you
to say it right?
so when i heard your silence
my heart stopped.

I thought you might just sigh and laugh it off
but your brain totally went
shit, no way, mean girls
i can feel it even if you say otherwise
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry

I really didn't mean to
but it's like an addiction
i just can't pull myself away
whenever i'm afraid but
don't want to let you know
then i'll say something
just to make you say that you love me
or to make you worked up
it's wrong
but it's how i assure myself that you won't leave

I'm not sure you know how truly scared i am
just missing you hurts like crazy
thinking about you leaving kills me
i know it's not your fault
you did try try so hard to comfort me
but there's just that little part
that tightens whenever i get reminded
that there's a possibility

and when you get angry
i don't know if you've noticed
but i get so scared that i can't speak
all i can do
is helplessly look at you
and grab on to you as tight as possible
to make sure that you won't run away
but if one day you were to really
break away
i won't be able to chase you
i'd be stuck where i am
and i'd just cry and cry and cry

i'm sorry i'm so paranoid
it's like i'm psychotic
i don't know why i just can't calm
this stupid heart down
that's why i give you everything
that why i want you to be happy
because even though i know
it's not good to make you happy that way
i'm just too afraid that you'll
leave me if you're not

please don't ever leave me with the reason
that i'm too paranoid
if you think so tell me when i'm acting
that way and i'll change
i promise.
i'd rather you be here
than be paranoid

i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
you probably won't trust what i say again
but still
i really do love you
very much.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?