I've been so stressed this week
so stressed that every single
little thing will drive me insane.
Till today, i realize that i've been
neglecting so many things in my life.

i've always felt that i was
struggling along in my life
and that no one could understand.
It seems like there no end to this struggle.
That it will go on for forever.

But i know now that i've been looking
at the small picture of everything.
That the world doesn't revolve
on my pain alone.
That i've been too focused on things that
SEEMED to matter.

I have to learn to widen my scope
and look at the big picture.
I'll have to know what really matters
and not blindly listen to all the things
around me, surrounding me.

When i saw my baby cousin today,
i realize that innocence is not
the amount of knowledge that you know
but the attitude you have towards others.
You laugh just because they laugh.

It's not stupidity.
it simple joy.
My cousin, she laughs like an angel,.
i don't think she truly understands
what i'm laughing about, but she laughs
with so much happiness
it's astounding.

She makes it seem that there is no sadness
in this cold cruel world.
Than i understand the truth.
It's not that world is cold and cruel,
it's just that i've grown to judge others that way.

Perhaps it's time for me to learn how
to laugh again. How to laugh simply.
Just for the plain reason that i'm happy
because you are.
Perhaps that's the real meaning of true love.
Being able to smile even when it hurts inside.

It's not a forced smile,
it's true happiness stemmed from yours....