sigh...
seems like everyone's moving.
moving to where?
i really can't tell.
i love people who don't love me.
(except my family duh)

I can't understand myself anymore...
it's like i'm lost in the world...
a tornado of lies, a facade,
a mirage of dreams.
who can i love who will love me back
as hard.

hard.
hard as a rock, hard as a diamond.
no i'm not trying to get married.
i just think that sometimes...
even the closest people lie to you.
right in your face.
you feel like you're being taken advantage of.

they seem to live and forget.
leave you abandoned, forsaken.
hanging on to but a breath of air.
you try, but it's all so sad.
so tiring, so suffocating.
taken for granted.
like i'll always be here for YOU!

i will.
i really will.
but who will be here for me.
they bully me cos i won't retaliate.
and you know what,
they know it.
they know that i won't say anything.

they know that i won't cry,
won't get angry,
won't glare or scold or go COLD WAR!
so they do it again and again.
even thou i can say multiple times.
I DON"T LIKE IT!

they give that whatever.
how can you don't like it.
stare.
they don't seem to get it
thru their thick skulls
that i mean what i say.
and when i keep silent they go.
why so emo.

apologize.
i think. trying to psych it into their brains
but to no avail.
i don't think it would even matter
if i would to shout it out.
they would go what?
come on let's go eat!
ha. ha.

like i said.
who's gonna be there when i die
the stars in the sky will cry... ...

oh ya
happy 43 birthday S'pore